once again

once again i had a dream about returning back to rexburg. every fall i will randomly have a dream about returns back to school that in one way or another result in a problem or just something weird. last night i think i may have had the worst one of all. in my dream i arrived back at davenport and began to ball. ball because it had happened so fast and i didn't get everything done in the fall that i had planned. in my dream, i put my stuff in my bedroom then went out onto the porch and just cried and cried because i was so sad how fast time went. then i remembered that i wasnt even supposed to be living in davenport and i was at the wrong place anyways. right now i can still feel the saddness i felt in my dream that i wasn't able to accomplish what i set out to for this fall. the fall is a time for me to organize myself and prepare for the next year at school and so far i have done little of that this fall, and time is running out. i think i needed that dream to give me a wake up call, to remind me to get on the ball and to warn me how time is flying. so once again i need to get with it, seriously. i don't want to fear going back to school unprepared, but go back excited and prepared for it.